A personal essay...

by Christopher Holt, Age 16

The Silencing of Queer Youth

 

            According to the Centers for Disease Control /Massachusetts Department of Education Youth Risk Behavior Survey, done in 1999, 33 percent of lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgendered and questioning (LGBTQ) youth will attempt suicide during their adolescence–well over four times the rate of their heterosexual peers.  This is the tragic reality of a world that does not talk about sexuality and gender expression which differs from the norm.  Today, even in the world’s most progressive countries, LGBTQ youth are the victims of an excruciating silencing which tears away at the self-esteem, hope and the dreams of these adolescents resulting in depression, homelessness, poor education and self-destructive behavior.  These are our children, and we must attempt to work out these issues with an understanding and an open mind for their well-being and the benefit of all society.  We must end the silence.

            Many people do not realize that homelessness is an issue which affects LGBTQ youth.  I currently know a guy who has an ex-boyfriend who ran away from home because of his own homosexuality.  I went to elementary school with him, and although I do not know where he is now, this event illustrates the problem.  Indeed, one federally funded study found that 25 percent of street youth may be gay or lesbian.

            In her book The Family Heart: A Memoir of When Our Son Came Out Robb Forman Dew describes her own horror at the “atrocity” of silence which so many parents respond initially to the subject of homosexuality: “We unknowingly let our children grow up in a society that reflects back at them utter scorn for their legitimate emotions.  And if our children look to us for confirmation or denial of their dawning understanding of how hard their lives might be, they are met with nothing but a lethal silence, or worse -our unwitting but implied concurrence.”

            Depression is another serious issues for many LGBTQ youth.  As one student said, “I was depressed. Feeling alone and isolated from the rest of the world, I managed to fail three of my five majors in one year.” 

            In a situation like this, it is difficult to get the most out of an education, especially when many fear harassment at school.  Some LGBTQ youth isolate themselves from their friends because they’re afraid that someone will discover that they’re LGBTQ or that they’ll accidentally reveal something and be the target of abuse.  Studies show that between 48 and 76 percent of LGBTQ youth are despondent and depressed and contemplating suicide but they don’t actually attempt it.  Between 29 and 42 percent of LGBTQ youth, however, do attempt suicide.

            The silencing of LGBTQ youth is a social ill that comes with perhaps some of the most frightening consequences, providing action is not taken to heal these problems.  And the most frightening thing is often what we don’t know.  Besides the fact that it hurts the LGBTQ people themselves, it is difficult to pinpoint the affects of the silencing of queer youth on greater society simply because these issues are not talked about.  The good news is that life does not need to be so bleak and secretive.  There are things that all of us can do, regardless of our sexual orientation that will help remedy the situation. Even if some of us perhaps have never thought about homophobia, we can all become fuller, more complete people by accepting that there is diversity in sexuality and gender expression and that personal growth can be found with an awareness of all civil rights issues.

            To begin with, if you identify as an LGBTQ youth or are an ally that attends a school, it is good to participate in the Day of Silence which is a national protest where students choose not to speak for the day and instead hand out cards explaining their cause.  The Day of Silence usually fall on April 21, but the date may vary depending on where you live.  In addition, National Coming Out Day which takes place in the Fall is a good tool because if you know someone who is LGBTQ, this helps to alleviate fear.  Also, to hear the personal experiences and the stories of queer people is helpful.  Perhaps as we incorporate the stories of queer experience into greater society, our culture will slowly begin to change.

            Throughout this paper, you have heard me use the term queer as well as LGBTQ.  It is helpful to use the word queer in a positive way because it reclaims something that was originally meant to hurt.  It is also an all-inclusive word which recognizes lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgendered and questioning people without having to use complicated labels.  Of course, the term queer is still only appropriate in certain contexts, mostly among the LGBTQ community and their allies.       

            Imagine a world where LGBTQ youth no longer have to live in fear, and where parents can accept an LGBTQ child without having to hide anything.  If we fail to address these issues with understanding and an open mind, we will continue with a world that ignores the hopelessness, depression, suicide, and harassment of our queer youth.  This is the muted tragedy that could cease tomorrow if we all made the personal decision to end the silence and to demonstrate to the world our decision.  Tomorrow, we could not only be tolerant of our queer youth, but accepting of these children that no longer have to be outcasts.

            So what do we have to lose?  How could we end up worse off then we already are by simply being more loving?  The old ways of silence and misery have not worked; it is time to try something new.  Make the decision to fight for the happiness of all people.  Have the courage to end the silence by talking about these issues every chance you get.  Indeed as the French artist and writer Anais Nin once said, “Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one’s courage.”

 

 

                                                BIBLIOGRAPHY

 

Franks, Molly. Personal interview. 16 April 2004.

 

Herdt, Gilbert and Bruce Koff.  Something to Tell You: The Road a Family Travels       When a Child Is Gay. New York : Columbia University Press, 2000.

 

Jennings, Kevin.  Always My Child. New York: Fireside, 2003.